for a friendship whose love transcends time and space.

yesterday i was going through my usual course of self-deprecatory thoughts, and landed upon "i am unlovable."

i then thought (was reminded) about what a certain friend of mine would say to that. she would remind me that SHE loves me, and this fact would render that statement (which is already false for other reasons) very obviously untrue, ya big silly stupidhead.

i was then reminded that if i know that my friend loves me, how much more am i loved by God? how much a greater love was demonstrated by the death and resurrection of Christ? why do i not turn first to this as my solace?

and i am reminded that that's okay. the love between friends, or between any people, for that matter, is a reflection of the love of God. as the moon reflects the light of the sun to shine in the night sky (and do notice for this particular comparison that it waxes and wanes— interesting), so may human relationships beautifully reflect a love so intense, so bright, that we could not bear to behold it in its fullness...

even though it feels like it came out of my head i'm sure some one else has said that before, and i probably read it somewhere.

at last, the end of my quest is near?

for leftovers.

big ol' burritooooooooooo!!!!

let's face it. i'm not thankful today. this is bad. oh, it's bad.

so i'll say i'm thankful that i just bought some cookies and candy and ice cream at the store. seeya. i'm going to go snack.

for online sermons, i guess.

that at least i have a job to help keep all this emptiness from getting me down. at least, when it starts i will.

that i have a bed to sleep in.

it's done! well, almost.

for salt and vinegar potato chips as they helped keep me awake during more opportunities to fall asleep at the wheel.

i dunno. for safety i guess, not falling asleep at the wheel and all that.

for helpful people who help me.

for knowing that this will pass, it will.

that i can breathe easily. did i tell you how i was all sick on tuesday and couldn't breathe? now i'm thankful for breathing easily. seriously. you don't realize 'til you can't.

for the way discrete smaller goals help you to reach your bigger ones.

that it all is turning out okay i guess. and for only five patients this evening at work. FIVE. none of whom were actually ill.

for my mom and her mad bargaining skills. i’m sorry that we didn’t get to use them more.

that i feel better this morning, and was able to wake up and pack and everything and still make my early morning flight.

for sweetness from my coworkers dr. g and dr. r. that she was sweet to me even though i secretly hated her for absolutely no reason (i've stopped hating her). that he gave me a hug.

i’ve been taught a lesson.

that He is one who restoreth.

for the joy of making music.

i saw four patients total. FOUR.

DANGit. i keep having to post late. the blogger outages aren't helping either.

i'm thankful that that one kid, the one with the strawberry blond hair (the only true strawberry blond i have ever seen), did end up turning around and going from looking like death warmed over to looking like a rose.

mm. hunh.

a year later, i'm the same ol' me. and that's okay.

and that i don't look my age.

that all those babies born today were okay.

that no injuries resulted from my fall down the stairs this morning.

for easy goodbyes.

for the nice feeling you get when you are good at what you do.

... who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion ...

for this warm, wonderful smelling (bounce fabric softener) fluffy white bathrobe in which i can wrap my cold little bones and my achy little heart.